I’m sorry I’m just now updating y’all with news, but I didn’t have words til now… and I’m not really sure I even have the words as I’m writing this.
I lost my baby on Thursday, and even though I never got to meet him, he made a mark on my heart I will always carry with me. (and I didn’t know the gender, but in my mind it was a boy so I’ll be referring to “him”.) I honestly didn’t know the depths of despair until I lost him, and I’ve had a lot of loss and heartbreak in my life. He was wanted and prayed for for so long, and to lose him after such a short time just hurts me more than I can even express to y’all. I’ve mostly been unplugged from the internet for a few days, to grieve and spend time with my family. I’m trying to slowly ease myself back into work, both emotionally and physically (because I’m only 3 days post surgery at this point, and still have a lot of pain and physical limitations). I am planning to do a shop update tomorrow to try to bring some normalcy back into my life, but it will probably be some time before I’m back on the internet as much as I was before.
I also wanted to say a deep heartfelt thank you to my friends on Instagram who have started a “Unwind Yarn Love Along” (hashtag #unwindyarnlovealong and #onmymindonmyneedles) to show support for me and Chris as we grieve. They’re using yarn and fiber they’ve bought from me to work on projects. It has made me cry every time someone has earburned me (but in a good way!)… I have such wonderful friends and customers, and can’t even tell y’all how much it means that you all would do this for me.
I’ve got a long road ahead, and continually welcome your prayers and thoughts. Thanks so much for sticking with me.